i have not been on in weeks. probably a month. sheesh i don't know. i'm doing well. i guess. I'm weighing in at 170 even. i'll post pics later.

 I'm so very disappointed in myself. :(
Last night i binged terriblyy. And purged everytime.
To the point that i felt very very very sick.
I woke up this morning and jumped on the scale and realized I had gained back 1.2lbs.
UGH.
So this morning I got up and ate breakfast. (260cals). I always eat breakfast because you burn more calories in the morning time than you do any other part of the dayy. And after breakfast I decided to fast. I am already in One whole hour. Never fasted before so this is going to be a first!

 

 




UGH. Doesn't look like I've lost much :(

So this weekend was a COMPLETE failure. =( 
The rivvverrrr was a BLAST, but the amount of alcohol that was consumed was way outrageous. And on top of that, I ate half of a medium pizza by MYSELF. And Wendy's, and Enchiladas, and Applebees. i purged at least four times this weekend, and still managed to gain 4 fucking pounds. It was depressing.

So my ana friend and i decided to go on the abc (AGAIN i start over) today, plus I'm doing SlimQuick Clense && SlimQuick w/ Hoodia at the same time. Today has been absolutely fantastic. 

b- lean pocket-260cals
l- smart ones roasted turkey-210cals
d- hmm don't know yet... thinking maybe some celery before bed && cigarettes most def.

Plus another wonderful thing about today is I'm going to an Astros game after work, so I'll be preoccupied during my binge hours!! Yay!

 So yesterday night i went home and added more calories to the 77 over I already was. i don't really know how many, and quite frankly I'm gonna pretend it didn't happen. I purged (it was uncontrollable). But overall itwas some pretty healthy calories. Zuchini, Squash, Bell Pepper, Onions, Grilled Chicken, and Rice. 

But I did go to Wal-Mart last night and stocked up on some essentials. I bought K2O Protein Water Mix (only 30 cals), Bottled Water, Diet Coke, 100 Calorie Packs, lots and lots of Veggies, I got some Grilled Chicken (the whole package is only 80 cals), imitation Crab Meat, I also got some SlimQuick. Gonna see how well that works out for me. 

Morning Weight- 181.6

B- Diet Coke, 100 Calories Pack (100cals)

L- [[IT'S GONNA BE]] Healthy Choice Meal (220cals) 

  SO I def ate a piece of pizza. UGHHHHH. I purged the hell out of myself then took my SlimQuick.  I wonder how many calories I just ingested?!?!?!?!

D- [[IT'S GONNA BE]] Nothing. Because I fucked up && am a complete lard ass. UGH.

 H-5'4
CW-184.8 [[<--UGH I know, I know.]]
LW-115
HW-244.3 [[<--Day I gave birth.]]

GW1-160
GW2-140
GW3-120
GW4-100

i started Day 1 of the ABC diet today. The first day is 500 calories or less, well I  already fucked that up by 77 calories. So no more eating for the rest of the day. Hopefully I'll get to work out tonight, while the baby sleeps. I need to prep for the river trip this weekend and get some laundry together to wash. By tonight I'll decide whether or not I want to do a three day fast or not. I really really need to. I feel so damn bloated it's unreal. Maybe I'll take some lax's too.. We shall see.